So I wrote my first college paper few months ago and thought I would share it with you all! Its about Aubrey and my life then and now I guess. Sorry its so long but I wanted to share it!
I believe in the gift of life. On December 17, 2008 my entire view on life changed in an instant. I was a senior in high school ready to graduate and go on to college at FAU 1… 2 little did I know God had something in store for me- I had found out I was pregnant. Never in my life had I been more scared of the unknown. I wasn’t ready for what was ahead 3 but I knew that this baby belonged to me and I would love it eternally.
It was the middle of my senior year. I had been accepted into Florida Atlantic University. Everything was set in stone 4. I was enrolled and planned on joining a sorority in the fall of 2009. When I found out I was pregnant, I was in denial. I kept telling myself that something like that just couldn’t happen to me. I was nervous and didn’t know what to do with myself. On top of that fear, my parents were disappointed and no longer on speaking terms with me. The guy that had gotten me pregnant wanted nothing to do with neither me nor my future baby. My friends all told me that I couldn’t possibly have the baby, that it would ruin the rest of my life. The next month was the toughest of my pregnancy. I was alone.
About a month into my pregnancy, something great happened to me. 5 A boy from my homeroom was in Wal-Mart next to me and asked for my number. And the best part was that he was completely comfortable with me having a baby just a few months down the road. Sean was what got me through those long nine months. He and I had some rough patches, but he was like an angel. He was my gift from God at that moment.
About six months into my pregnancy, I started having doubts again. I didn’t doubt the fact that I would love my baby with all my heart, but I doubted myself. I wasn’t sure if I could handle a baby at eighteen years old. I didn’t know if I was mature enough to handle the long nights ahead. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to be a good parent. Parenting was a foreign subject to me and I was starting to have doubts. I considered finding better parents for my daughter. I looked into adoption. I honestly thought long and hard about the decisions I knew that I needed to make in the near future.
After talking to several close friends about my situation, I came to a decision: I would be an awesome mommy. I was excited for this little girl to come into my world. I knew that God had some reason that I could not explain at the time for why she was given to me at such a young age. God had a plan for me; and I just didn’t know what it was yet. I loved my baby girl even, 7 through the painful kicks to my ribs. She was mine forever.
August 23, 2009 was the proudest moment of my life. I was in labor for a full 24 hours and I pushed for three of those hours! My beautiful baby girl was born at 6:23 p.m. Aubrey Jade Parker weighed seven pounds, fourteen ounces, and she was nineteen and a half inches long. She was my little bundle of joy 8. All I wanted to do was to hold that precious gift from God. Her presence alone made ever ache, pain, and contraction worth it.
People say babies cannot smile on their own until they are older. My daughter smiled on day two. She slept through the night at three months and rolled over at five months. She started crawling at eight months, but that’s probably because nobody ever wanted to put her down! She’s just too cute to let go of! 9Every day, her smile brings happiness to my world.
I now know why God gave me Aubrey. If I had chosen not to have Aubrey, I would have wound up at FAU in a sorority. That’s not where I was supposed to be in life. My place in this world is in Huntington, West Virginia, with my daughter Aubrey, and Sean. Aubrey brought Sean and I together. Our bond is inseparable now. He is the best daddy I could have ever asked for. God gave me Aubrey to keep me in Huntington. He had a different and even better plan that I had in mind.
Sean and I are now happily engaged. We are both in school and ready to see what else God has to offer us. Having a baby has changed my plans in life. Having a baby has made me stronger that 11I have ever been. Aubrey has inspired me to stay in school. She is the reason I wake up in the morning and force myself out of bed for those 8 am 12 classes. Sean, Aubrey, and I are a team. We have learned to embrace what we have and accept what we don’t. We are building a life together one day at a time.
Aubrey is walking now. It was a crazy thing to see. Two days after her first birthday she picked herself up and just started going. She made it ten whole steps before falling. Instead of giving up 13 she picked herself back up and tried again. She is a wonderful example of determination and of 14hope. No matter how hard the task she keeps at it until she gets what she’s trying to accomplish.
Whatever God has in store for a person no matter what age they happen to be I believe they 16should embrace it. The gift of life is a beautiful thing. Every unborn baby deserves a place in this world to love and to be loved. My daughter has made me a better person; she was my beautiful gift from God. People are made and designed for a specific purpose and they too deserve a wonderful life on earth.
p.s. congrats on working so hard to achieve your goals and being a great mommy 🙂
that’s an awesome story!! I cried ..lol