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Week 9
Milestones: Lots of refinements are happening with little baby bunny this week! Most noticeable would be the genitals starting to differentiate. My Journal: I am 9 weeks today, and woke up feeling excited as usual! With each passing week I count my blessing and thank God for making it a little bit farther. Right now I am just trying to take it a day at a time and make sure to take care of myself and this baby so that everything goes as well as possible. I am starting to let myself dream a little bit about this baby and what he will be like when he's born and what our family will be like, and it's wonderful to feel more confident than ever that that will be a reality. I'm actually feeling much healthier this pregnancy than I have before - I still feel sick and exhausted but not extremely so. I'm really counting down the next 3 weeks until I can feel even better because I won't be scared or anxious anymore about possibly losing this baby. Even now, the worry is starting to get less and less as I get farther and farther along in the pregnancy. I can't believe I'm already 9 weeks, but it feels like it's gone by so fast! I had an appt. with my OB yesterday, and she says now that we've seen the heartbeat and seen the baby at 8 weeks, my chances of miscarrying are way down. Obviously, it doesn't mean I'm guaranteed not to, and she reminded me of this too, but just to hear that my chances were very reduced was a great feeling. She wants me to try to wait a month to have my next u/s (which may be my last one!), but said if I was really getting anxious I could go earlier if I wanted. So I think I'm going to try to wait until 11.5 or 12 weeks to get it, but I don't think I can wait until 13. Test Results/Ultrasounds: Last week, we heard back from the genetics clinic and our chromosome test came back normal for both of us! So that is a huge relief! It means that we're no closer to finding out what caused the other miscarriages, but it's good to know that it's not this specific chromosomal abnormality. We also had an ultrasound last week (at 8 weeks, 3 days), because I was still having cramps that were getting worse and really made me very anxious about how the baby was doing. But of course the baby was going fine, and even measuring a little bit for my dates! He was 2cm CRL! Paul came with me and we both got to see the hearbeat again, which was a wonderful relief. Baby bunny looks very cosy in there and even looked like he was waving at us (see picture!). Physical: I am feeling pretty good actually! I still haven't been sick to my stomach yet with this pregnancy, which is great! I just hope I'm not jinxing myself by bragging about it, but I am happy that I can keep my meals down (it's an accomplishment, okay?). This is really different from my past pregnancies. I looked in my other journals, and with Harmony I was throwing up by 6 weeks, and willow by 7. Didn't write it down with sienna but it must've been around 7-8 as well since I started the dicclectin. I'm not feeling as tired or sick as "normal" (i.e. normal pregnancy), and I think it might be because I'm not having any caffeine and drinking tons of water daily to keep me healthy. The only thing that is really bothering me is the cramping! I have had a little bit of cramping for a few weeks and had been trying to ignore it and then last week it turned into more than just a "little bit" and I was feeling so scared and anxious! Even now that I'm seen the baby on the ultrasound and everything is going well, I still get really scared every time I have a cramp. My OB says it's a normal pregnancy thing, my Dr. says it could be the progesterone, but I'd still rather not have it because I can't just not worry about it, even knowing it's normal or progesterone-caused. Weight Gain/Food: Still at just 5lbs, I'm hoping to maintain that for the whole first trimester. I've had two people tell me I look like I've lost weight too! So I think the weight is really going towards that belly (and everything inside that uterus that's as big as a grapefruit!) and not really storing itself up elsewhere yet, which is good. Hope that trend continues. I am starting to notice the cravings more though (cherry stick donuts from Tim's -mmmmmm!), so it'll be harder to make sure I don't gain too much during my pregnancy this time! Emotional: Well my grandma gave me a copy of "Chicken Soup for the Mother's Soul" and I should've known better than to read it while pregnant because almost every story has me teary-eyed! I am definitely very emotional these days, and crying over really silly things. One night last night I got really super upset because I only remembered to give Harmony her goodnight kiss after I'd already taken my progesterone and I was "stuck" lying down for half an hour and was worried I'd fall asleep before I could get up and give her a kiss. So I was asking Paul to "deliver" a kiss to her and was in tears over the fact that I never forget to give her a kiss but that night I'd remembered too late, and felt like such a terrible mother. I felt so silly getting so upset over it, but it just really made me very emotional. "Preggo brain" is also continuing to have an effect - big time! I'm surprised I still manage to function normally and pass myself off as smart, because I'm definitely short more than a few brain cells, sheesh! Today I threw my yogurt cup in the garbage… along with the spoon still inside! I forget a lot of little things these days, like walking outside without my keys or water bottle or other things I needed to go out with. Oh well, if baby needs that extra blood and oxygen and it means a little less needs to go to my brain, than he can have it! I keep saying I'm lucky I'm so brilliant to begin with so that when I get dumber I am still pretty smart.
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