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Week 10
Milestones: Baby is probably about an inch and a half long by now, and has distinct little fingers! The biggest milestone that will happen in the next week will be that he/she will soon be considered a "fetus" instead of an "embryo"! My Journal: When someone asks me how I'm feeling these days, my usual reply is "Sick and exhausted, but GREAT!". Which just about sums things up on either end of the spectrum! On the one hand, yes, I'm getting more nauseous and feeling more fatigued, but on the other hand, I am reassured that this pregnancy is still going so strongly! I have been feeling a bit more relaxed lately, and am starting to enjoy being pregnant and really have true confidence that I'll be holding a baby in my arms in less than 7 months! I am a little anxious about the coming weeks though, especially next week. I really want the week to go by in a flash so I can get past 11 weeks and be farther than I've been with any of my past 3 pregnancies! I think even at that point I will start to be able to relax even more, then at 12 weeks be even more sure that this pregnancy is "for real". It's strange but even though I've been feeling better lately about my chances of carrying this baby to term, there's still a lot I'm not planning for or thinking about too much yet, like birthing options, names, nursery décor, etc. I've continued to let myself dream a little, plan a little, wonder a little, but carefully and cautiously so. I am really eager to be sitting here writing my 11 week and then 12 week updates! Hang in there little almost-fetus, you can make it! Mommy's taking such good care of you! Test Results/Ultrasounds: Still waiting for the beta HCGs from when I went in to see my Dr., it's been a week now though, so maybe I should call and harass the Dr's office for them. I am still thinking about when to go in for that next ultrasound. I was feeling a little calmer about things, but now am starting to get worried again. It's been a week and a half since I've seen my baby, and I don't know if I can wait until 12.5 weeks - 13 weeks as planned. I think I will go in at 11.5 weeks, which is about when my next OB check-up is as well. Physical: I have two very constant reminders that I'm carrying this little baby inside me! One is my shockingly expanding waistline and the other is the constant nausea. I wake up now feeling queasy, and then feel sick most of the morning. Just when the nausea starts to lift, I go and take my progesterone, and often feel more nausea after! Might be the progesterone aggravating my pregnancy symptoms or just straight-up progesterone side-effect of nausea, but whichever is responsible, I often can't shake the feeling until lunch or later. Some days I get the afternoon "off" and don't feel too sick, but then usually after dinner it starts up again and the evening is either nausea or heartburn. I really have to be careful now what I eat and when and how much - I am sticking with very small meals and spreading them out throughout the day, which helps a lot. And of course I'm still eating my daily yogurt! For the past week, I've eaten mostly breakfast foods for lunch (cereal, bagel, leftover pancakes, eggs), and that seems to have helped with the nausea in late morning/early afternoon. Unfortunately, although I've been bragging all this time about not throwing up, I finally did this morning. But hey, I am still happy about not throwing up until 10 weeks, that is the latest with any of my pregnancies! As for the belly, oh my goodness! I am now bigger than I was with any pregnancy except for Harmony! And I look about what I looked like at maybe 5 months with her. Let the stretch marks begin, I guess! I love my little belly though, I am glad everything is taking as much room as it needs to be able to grow all those different parts. At least I am closer now to getting out of that really awkward "in-between" stage, where my belly isn't big enough to be an "obviously" preggie belly, but isn't small enough to cover. I guess I'll just have to deal with another few weeks of just looking "fat" instead of pregnant. I'm truly frustrated with my clothes though! I don't have very many summer maternity clothes at all, especially since at this stage with Harmony I was still wearing my regular jeans and shorts. And I only had only one pair of pregnancy jammies with Harmony, which got worn out and thrown out. So last night I was really upset to discover that none of my regular jammies fit except one last pair that was a bit too warm for the heat wave we've been having. I was stuck! Today I made my way to the mall and spent some birthday money on a nice pair of pregnancy PJs that will last my whole pregnancy and are also nursing jammies as well. I also picked up 3 summer tank tops as well, and put one of them on right away! It's been so hot these past few days that I keep thinking, "It's going to be a long, hot, summer!". That's why I'd planned my last two pregnancies to end in May, but oh well, I will bear the heat with a smile on my face since I have a wonderful baby in my belly to keep me company! Weight Gain/Food: Believe it or not, I've actually lost a couple pounds! So my total weight gain for the pregnancy is only at 3 lbs, great! I'll be making sure to keep it under 5 for the first trimester. Which continues to be a challenge with those cravings! There was a 4th type of ice cream added to the freezer this morning (What?! It was on sale! I was hot!). Oh and there's a Tim Horton's cherry stick wrapped up in there in a baggie that is labelled "Emergency preggie donut - do not eat!" (I think Paul will get the point). Strange since I used to be craving lots of salty foods but am now craving some sweeter foods - hmmm, maybe not a boy after all? Emotional: I feel so silly sometimes, crying over such little things! You'd think I'd be more adjusted to these hormones by now. Last night when I was struggling to find some pajamas that fit, I just started crying over it all! It was so upsetting to me to not have anything to wear, I just had a hard time coping with all the changes. I just wasn't prepared for my belly to "pop" out again, all of a sudden, and not give me much time to prepare. Luckily, Paul has been understanding… sometimes he can't help laughing when I cry over such ridiculous things (I don't blame him, I usually end up laughing too, after I've stopped crying!), but he's also been very comforting and helpful. One thing I've noticed popping up that I had in other pregnancies as well is an extreme sensitivity to things. It's hard to tell if it's a physical or emotional thing, but I find little things can really irritate me, whether it's a repetitive noise or constant tickling/itching on my body. External stimuli can sometimes bring on this discomfort, just like I want to cocoon myself away to not be exposed to it. I guess it's just something that comes with this heightened "Spidey-preggie sense", as I call it! Everything is exaggerated, from smells to emotions to cravings to discomfort!
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