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Week 8
Milestones: Baby is now ½" long, about as big as a cherry! The little limb "paddles" are formed and now little fingers are starting to form too. In the coming week, baby and I will be fine-tuning such little parts as eyelids and the tip of the nose and the beginning of genitals. My Journal: I'm still having a very positive feeling about this pregnancy, and I even sometimes dare to dream about the future, about holding my baby, rocking him/her, reading to him/her, and all those wonderful things. It just makes my heart ache so much, wanting all these wonderful dreams to come true, but I feel more and more confident every day that I'm going to be bringing my baby home to join our family. I had a hypnotherapy appointment last week and one of the activities we did was walking me through a path to a hot air balloon. I was told to give all the little ballast bags "labels" of emotions, like "anxiety", etc. whatever I felt, and then I tossed them over the side of the balloon and was lifted into the air. I realized after that a lot of the "labels" I'd stuck on without really thinking, were all pretty much tied to fear! Like what came to mind were words like "miscarriage", "bleeding" "being alone" "no more children" "hospitals", etc. and I realized that if I put "fear of" in front of all those things, that was what really expressed what the true emotion was! So I'm trying to stay with the positive thoughts and to not let the negative thoughts overpower the positive ones. It's hard because of course all those fears keep surfacing, but I just need to keep things relaxed and positive so that little baby bunny is getting the best possible nurturing environment. I'm not giving my mind the option to let my body do anything other than keep this baby healthy. All the other things I'm doing to help this pregnancy are also going well. I'm still on the progesterone suppositories (and have about another 5 weeks of that), and still making sure to rest often, drink tons and tons of water, and to eat healthy. Sometimes it feel a little extreme to me, like why do I have to jump through all these hoops just to stay pregnant?! But other times I wish there was more I could do, and I feel like I would do anything to make sure this baby stays alive and healthy, even if someone told me standing on my head for an hour a day would do it, I would do that! I think all these little extra steps are actually helping me to feel more positive though, because I feel like it means there's really a better chance that this baby will be the one to survive. Test Results/Ultrasounds: Nothing new this week. Next appt. is not until next Monday and I will also push for an ultrasound shortly afterwards (by 9 and a half weeks). Physical: Yay, I still haven't thrown up, although I've been more and more nauseous. I picked up some vitamin B6, there is already a small amount in the prenatal vitamins I've been taking right from the start, but I heard that extra vitamin B6 can really help. My daily yogurt may not be quite enough! I am still craving a lot of salty foods, and still feeling pretty sick if I eat too much at once, so I really have to try to eat smaller meals. I find I need snacks more often though, like by the time 10am rolls around, I am really hungry for my yogurt! The constant changes in my body are making me laugh! There has been more than one time I've just called down the stairs "Honey, come and see this!". This week, it was my belly button! I all of a sudden noticed how visible the inside of my belly button was just from looking at it in the mirror. My belly is starting to firm up from the inside though and is pushing everything out. Even the skin area above my belly button is getting quite taut. Total weight gained so far: Still just at 5lbs (phew!). Emotional: Well, I don't know if I've ever had "pregnancy brain" this badly before! I still have managed not to spill a single drop of milk, but have forgotten so many things! Just having a whole lot of "Oh yeah!" moments, when someone will remind me of the very very obvious. I'm getting a little more hormonal too, and getting teary-eyed over the silliest things, like sappy commercials and the like. Still feeling like a "space case" as Harmony would say, staring off into space once in a while and just having a blanked-out moment. I think being pregnancy is such a funny sensation, it's like being on sedatives or something all day, every day. You just feel "out of it", but I guess you just adjust to all those hormones racing around in your system! I'm just trying to enjoy the whole pregnancy experience, "duh" moments and all…
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